Missing

The last two weeks have been the most eventful time I have had in a long while but it has also been the most mind-despairing time I've felt in a while.

I'm missing something and I don't know what it is.

Constantly tired but at the same time not having much to do.

The weird thing is I've been getting less and lesser sleep lately and it's not like I had anything really pressing to do.. more of doing destructive things to myself. I set my alarm and end up waking up 2 hours before it actually goes off which means I end up getting less than 5 hours of sleep everyday.

I then walk through the days feeling like I'm not there both mentally and physically as if I'm walking on rolling waves. My mind can't phantom little things anymore and I don't think it's something I should admit cause I smile and talk as if I know who you are.

I've also been drifting further and further away from my place of belonging. it's time the brood leaves the nest, sorry mom I'm not here anymore.

I plan to fly away and my mind is already there it's just my body hasn't caught up yet.

I took a survey regarding sexual assault and depression and realized all my answers pointed towards psychological unhappiness but I don't feel sad... just missing.

I guess I need something to get me to wake up in the morning without wishing I was back in bed cause I just lost 2 hours of sleep.

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road [she] lost [her] soul

I've been listening to more of the music I've "dislike" for years.. and has actually taken an initiative to search them out. I guess I'm changing either for good or bad.

The Fray- Heartless Cover