It had never occurred to me that I am at a marriageable age or that there are people within my circle of acquaintances who are already married and/or is having a child. I am ignorant.
I guess I still considered myself to be young and that everyone that I know are also in the same place as I am.
It was a big shocked to discovered that people I knew in high school or here in college are no longer the same person but now part of a couple. Especially, when I was surfing through profiles of other people and saw that under our mutual friends we have someone I never heard of... curious I went through our mutual acquaintances and was reeling when I realized that the person we knew is now with a new identity.
I've never been in a relationship yet alone know what it feels like to be asked for marriage, and had never imagined that at 21 years of age the people around me including myself are marry-able....
It just boggles my mind how clueless I have been.. or that I never even saw it as a normal thing. I still have a faraway and frilly outlook towards marriage; the whole white picket fence, 2 kids, a nice suburban house, stable jobs, mid 30s and a golden retriever in the backyard. Ironic thing is I see myself on the sidewalk looking in as the family sits down for dinner and walk pass knowing they are blind to the inevitable cycle of pain and regrets.
I am 21 years old and I am clueless to the things that happens around me.
(We all live to die. It just depends on how closer one is than other.)
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