Entranced

Working isn't as great as it is crack up to be.

I spent the last 6 months searching for one, losing and finding myself with each rejections. 400 applied, 200 fully wanted, 60 call backs, 10 happiness, 2 maybes, 1 success.

It's only been 1.5 weeks and I'm extremely tired and almost fully dread coming into work. Major reason, I don't talk to one of my coworker and I think she dislikes me. How childish is that?

I am an admirer of images, things meant to be but not whole. A concept not defined. Theory rather than practice. An Idealist with a mind for practicality. That's not entirely plausible now is it..

I dream but fight for it to be real. Once in concept it tends to fail.

I like reflections, since it shows what really is beneath. Mirror ostracized. Cool evening by the reflecting pond with crystal clear water and sandy bottoms in the shade of an elm tree. Ohh woe are my romantic ideas.

What the heck? Did I just say "Oh Woe"? yes, classical mythology isn't as easy as it was crack up to be either. I haven't bought a book in almost 2.5 years and for just a summer class I had to fork over $60 and is actually reading the damm thing. 200 + pages.. of something I thought I already knew from being a Greek Myth nerds in childhood. Ohh Woe is me for taking such an analytical class.

I dislike analytic, therefore I dislike myself. Self-hate, a Greek Tragedy, too bad it's almost always the Gods who punish and not the other way around.