It's funny but after years of holding on and refusing to let go.. hoping that one day I can get the courage to pick up that phone and dial a number I hope still works, I finally decided to click delete. Knowing that I still have that number, scroll pass it everytime I go to something else and knowing the probability that it still works is slim..the exception is me who kept a number for over 6 years. Reminisce, laughed, cried, overwhelming bitterness all combined into one emotion as I click that last resort button. Poof it's gone. No more holding on, the last vestige of my not wanting to forget in a form of something I will never have the courage to do anyways is now gone.
That was yesterday.
Today I learned regret. I finally decided to let go but it was not meant to be. That person walked back into my life and I'm almost entirely absolutely definitely unsurely excited and glad.
It's almost like i'm reliving the same mistakes I've made for long while. Walk in the past
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