It's a funny story that since High School, I always looked and worked to become involved with everything and anything I can get myself interested in. ie. Clubs, organizations, network, ect. Yet, whenever I am around other people, I can't talk about the things I do... I can't advertise my affiliation or allow anyone else to know that I am involved in this or that.
Take for example, I attend UCI, I have UCI apparels.. I wear UCI apparels on campus.. I DON'T wear UCI apparels anywhere else. Not that I am embarassed that I attend UCI, everyone I know is in awed that I do, it's just I feel conscious walking around with UCI plastered across my chest.
I am in Alpha Phi Omega. I have Alpha Phi Omega apparels. I wear Alpha Phi Omega apparels on campus.. I feel conscious when I do. I DON'T wear Alpha Phi Omega anywhere else. I am very attached to my letters but I do not feel comfortable wearing them outside of my fraternity. Especially, when I am walking around on campus... strange? very. This reminds me of a story with a friend regarding how everytime a person walks into a classroom late and he/she happens to have Greek letters on them; typically the words that come to mind are : No surprises there, they're late and they're Greek. << ha ha ha... I used to laughed at that. Now I don't.
I am involved with REACH. I talked about REACH with REACH people. I have tried to talk about REACH with others.. they don't get it/don't care for it. I DON'T talk about REACH after that.
I am involved with getting my ideas down after 3 days of having it in my head. I tried to talk to other people. I pretend I am talking. Some people listen.
I am not SELF Consious or Regret my involvements.. I don't have an answer to why I do what I do.
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